Up and out

Last week was dreary. The weather was dreary (it is today too), my mood was dreary, my body was exhausted. I was sick and emotional and guilt ridden. I was down about not working, not contributing, not being productive the way I think I should. I need to step back, enjoy my "me" time. I know it won't last long, in fact it won't last at all.
On Tuesday it was C.C.'s year end performance. Those kids made my day. The little kids dancing to J.B. made me actually squeal with delight. And E. has an amazing voice, I had no idea. Kids are so brave. Another brave kid, my not so little nephew. Tonight he has a band performance at the band stand in the park. I'm excited to go. My sister will be there too, I haven't seen her in months.
Last weekend we went up to D. & P.'s house. J. K. & baby L. came over. We ate more ice cream in 24 hours than I should in a week. But it really felt like a summer weekend, dinner outside, walks on the pier. Ahh summer.
This week has been better, I just applied for about 7 or 8 jobs, hopefully I'll hear back from at least 2 of them. But we'll see, not working isn't all bad. I feel like I've really caught up on my sleep! But poor W. having to get up so early every day. This is where I put guilt on myself. I have to let us be individuals, we make our own choices, even though we are so intertwined.
This post is random, but this is how I think. My birthday, oh my birthday. Do I even care? Yes, I care. All I desire is thoughtfulness. Not expensive gifts, thoughtful gifts. Off for now, W. should be home any minute.